Shortly before A’s first deployment, I had a total meltdown about him leaving. He tried to cheer me up by telling me that everything would be ok and that eventually I would probably look forward to deployment. Fast forward a few years, and it’s still hard for me to imagine a time when that’s true.
But I can honestly say that three-ish deployments later, I actually do look forward to parts of deployments! I know it sounds ridiculous, but it’s true! And frankly, I’m glad it’s that way. While I never want to look forward to being away from A, I am happy that even in the suckiest of circumstances, I can find the proverbial silver lining.
During deployment, I look forward to…
…the “I am woman, hear me roar” feeling I have after making it through a busy week (or month) at work and still managing to keep both dogs alive and the house standing.
…the first night we all sleep through the night again.
….creating and sending each care package, but none more so than the last one.
…the extra freedom that I have in my life: I watch what I want, eat what I want, go to to bed when I want and so on.
…the extra time I have to spend with family and friends.
…being the center of the dogs’ world and getting all the snuggles.
…not having to shave my legs. Sorry, y’all. That’s real life.
…checking each day off my deployment countdown calendar.
…every message, every phone call and every grainy video chat.
So there you have it. Proof that perhaps A was half right after all. What do you look forward to during deployment?